June 26, 2015

Roses and thorns

Today I'm marking down a maintain for the week. Some pounds are harder to lose than others, and this week was full of them.

Earlier this week, I was running around, trying to get a dozen things done in the few hours that Noah is at daycare. It wasn't anything big or important, just a lot of little things that needed to be done, and by the time I went to pick up my son, I was exhausted. So I made a simple dinner: turkey hot dogs, cut up strawberries, and watermelon. On MyFitnessPal, I was under my goal by 374 calories.

The next day, the scale was up seven pounds. SEVEN.

I cursed, I grumbled, but I didn't let it get me down - just realized that (a) I need to go to bed earlier so I'm well-rested (b) I need to make sure I am consistently drinking enough water and (c) I need to meal prep more/better so we don't depend on overly salty processed junk when Mama is too overwhelmed to cook. So the next day, I made a pulled pork in the crockpot and roasted a bunch of veggies so I could easily grab a scoop of each and call it a meal. It's simple, but I like simple. Simple works. I start to struggle when I try to complicate things too much. Don't overthink it.

Slowly but surely, the scale inched back down, and today it showed 314, the exact same as last Friday. I'm still up from before our trip to Connecticut, and I'm trying not to beat myself up about it. I know what works, I just need to do it consistently.

One good thing, though, about my workouts this week: I got my new sports bra in the mail, and I LOVE IT. I had heard about Enell's plus size sports bras for years but didn't want to spend the money. DO IT. I ordered it through Amazon - the same price as on the Enell website, but shipping was $12 through Enell and free through Amazon, so there was some savings there. And regardless: it is worth it. I am absolutely a believer. It has incredible support, even more than when I used to wear two sports bras at once. No bouncing, and best of all - no chafing. The front closure worried me at first, but honestly, it isn't uncomfortable and if it fits right, there shouldn't be any issues with it unhooking.

My best friend Lorelei is visiting from Chicago (arriving tonight), and I am incredibly excited to have her here. She was such a huge part of my success the first time around...

We would go to the gym together, run races together, cook together. It was one of only a few relationships I have where the dynamic didn't completely shift as a result of my weight and its various changes, and I am incredibly grateful for that, and for her. I don't feel any food anxiety about her visit, which is great - she even asked if we could cook healthy foods together, which makes me feel so good. It *is* possible to spend time with people and not panic about food, not binge, not completely fall off course and forget long-term goals.

So, this upcoming week: with Lorelei, but still just more of the same, I guess. Sweat. Drink all the water. Do as much meal prep as possible to keep myself on track. Focus on my goals.

What about you? What are your favorite meals to prep in advance?