March 1, 2014


I rarely disappear from the blog for so long on purpose. The past two weeks or so have been intensely full of work-related stress, and it should continue through the next two weeks - we are at the midterm point already, so I have been giving and grading written and oral exams. That on top of committee meetings and meetings with my department chair to discuss potential projects, plus the approval of a half semester course to cover a course that was dropped due to low enrollment (and now needs full enrollment of its own to make sure it doesn't get canceled as well, bringing me back to square one) ... I  wish I could say I couldn't wait for spring break, but even that will be full of work,  preparing lessons and homework for the half semester course that might not even be used if I don't have enough students sign up and it gets canceled.

Looking for gratitude in little places, I could not be more thankful for the fact that Noah sleeps through the night. It's a little thing, but it's one less thing that I have to worry about - and one less thing that impedes a decent night's sleep.

My eating for the past week has been terrible. I've had no desire to cook and even less desire to eat healthy foods. My weight is up a couple of pounds from the end of the Whole 30, though I'm honestly surprised it isn't up more, considering how much sugar/grains I've consumed in the past week.

The rash on my fingers is back, and so are the chapped lips. After reading that chronic chapped lips are a symptom of prediabetes, I got scared.

So far, I have been lucky. At 345 pounds, I wasn't prediabetic. I lost 155 pounds and things looked like they were in the clear. I regained a considerable amount of weight during my pregnancy, but again, miraculously, did not have issues with gestational diabetes.

If you play with fire, you will eventually get burned.

I had a talk with Matt the other day about what a positive next step would be for me in terms of trying to reclaim my health. I enjoyed the results of the Whole 30, and how it felt initially, and so for April I am going to attempt another one. For March, I asked Matt to start picking me up from work at 5 p.m. instead of 3 p.m. - there is a gym on campus, much like the one that I used when I lost the weight the first time. Building exercise time into my schedule is going to be tough - it takes time away from being with Noah and Matt. But if I want to be there for them long-term, I need to invest a little bit of time each day right now.

My goal for March is 25 workouts. As far as eating, I don't know what my plan will be, I am still mulling it over. Part of me thinks I should go back to Chobani for breakfast and Lean Cuisines for lunch, if only because it is easier to count calories and control my intake. I don't like that my weight loss is so contingent upon pre-packaged foods, but I know that something I struggled with during (and before, and after) the Whole 30 was portion control. Eating NSNG is a goal I would like to have for myself in maintenance, but right now, with a significant amount of weeks left to lose, I know that it is a big challenge for me.

So, I'm still figuring things out. I have big plans for March, and I truly feel like going to the gym at a scheduled time every day will help - not only with my weight loss, but with my stress and energy levels. Of all the things I did to lose the weight the first time, exercise has been the hardest to make time for again. I am inconsistent with healthy food choices, but they're at least a little easier to make time for, with the crock pot and all. I can have Matt cook, but I'm the only one who can exercise for me.

What about you? How was your February? What are your plans to do well for yourself in March?


Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

Now that we'll be gaining daylight later in the day, and POSSIBLY get warmer, it'll be nice for you to get out with the baby in the stroller. It was great to get out of the house and enjoy my neighborhood with my kids and then the 2 I babysat. I walked my old route with my husband the other day and I was amazed by all the changes!

I got myself a FITBIT!! Since I'm home a lot, I realize how much of a slug I can be. This is giving me incentive to hit 10,000 steps every day. SO, when I'm on the phone or texting, I'll pace instead of sit! Every little bit helps!

Dinnerland said...

Good for you! Getting back on track is as simple and as difficult as just saying: I'm moving forward. Don't look back.

Anonymous said...

Getting back on track can be hard, good for you! I fell off my own wagon the past two weeks so to speak. My goals for March are to increase my steps/exercise. It's time to kick it up the next level. Also taking part in a FitFluential Challenge, 100 Miles in March!

PJ Geek said...

good exercise plan.

Running Meg said...

As a fellow mom with guilt issues about leaving the kiddos (I work full time, as well) I completely understand how you feel about taking up pressure kid time to go to the gym. It sucks!
However, you're right, you are making a choice for your future together. Focus on that instead of the time you are missing together.
He is not going to feel abandoned or any LESS because you aren't around while you work out. I PROMISE! (seriously, I have to pump myself up when I miss time with my twins during my long runs on weekends so I'm in your shoes, mama!)

Denise said...

I joined Weight Watchers online. I needed to do something about my weight. I can focus on paleo in about 70 pounds or so.

Anonymous said...

You once posted something about your father that really affected me and I still think about it. You wrote about how he was too sick to come see his grandchild, and the stark reality was that his sickness was due largely to his own choices, that he chose not to take the steps needed to control his diabetes.

I am still in awe that you completed the Whole30 (and more). It shows that the spark and willpower that allowed you to drop 155 lbs is still in there. Every small choice is important for you and your family.