Unlike any school I've ever attended or taught at, this university gives a full week off for Thanksgiving break. I'm thankful for a lot of things this year, and this is definitely one of them. After what has felt like going non-stop since Noah was born, I'm ready for a few days of rest.
And I hope they are restful.
I'm nervous about going to Florida and staying with Matt's grandparents - it's not that they are strangers, I have met them before. But they are very health-conscious and I am worried that my extreme tendencies will kick in. I'll either deprive myself all week to fit in, or try and binge in private so they don't realize I have problems with food.
I wish I could have talked to my therapist this week, but we broke up. Well, I dumped her. After she was at least 5 minutes late to every single session (this time for more than 15 minutes), then went over time every session as well, I finally had enough and called, got her voicemail, and said thank you for all her help but I would not be returning to her practice. I finally heard back from her nearly an hour later, saying she was sorry and let's try again. Honestly, though, it wasn't the most comfortable environment, and so the search begins again for a new therapist.
That was Tuesday. The next day was my birthday. I have been anxious about that for a while, mainly stressing over what we would do for a birthday dinner. We ended up going out to sushi for lunch (I figured, smaller portions would be better) and then made dinner at home. Birthday cake was replaced with frozen yogurt. I thought it was a good day food-wise, but the next day I was up two pounds. I had maintained all week, then that, and today I'm still there: 251. I hate being back in the 250s but I know it's temporary. Looking at my last few weeks of weigh-ins, they all look like this. Big loss, small regain. Down 3, up 1 ... down 5, up 2. I don't like the regain, but I'm glad it goes back down again. It shows how I'm determined to get back to my healthiest self. I don't give up, even when the going gets tough.
Today I am doing oral interviews with my students for their final exam. A busy teaching day, but not a hard one. Then, Matt, Noah, and I will head to the store to get some last minute road trip needs - diapers, bottled water, toiletries - then it's home to pack. Matt will go for a run while I pack, then I will hit the gym while he makes sure the trash is taken out and the dishes are done. I ate within my calories yesterday but was exhausted and didn't work out - if I had, I know the scale would've been back down this morning. A good workout will help me feel better and get me in a good mood for the next week.
I don't know if I will have constant Internet access (I'm almost hoping I don't, so I can unplug a bit!) but I hope to blog at least once while we are gone. Matt's mom, grandmother, and brothers got me an iPad for my birthday, so I can at least draft posts. There is a Blogger app - I downloaded it but haven't tried it yet, hope it works!
What about you? How was your week? What are your Thanksgiving plans? Anyone have a review of the Blogger app for iPad?