September 20, 2013

Roses and thorns

I'm down another two pounds this week, to 255. It's a good feeling, to be on a bit of a roll. The weight loss is entirely food based - just making better choices more consistently. I still need to add exercise back in - besides some occasional walking (and really, that's minimal), the weight loss is entirely dietary. And in a way, I think that's good. It's good to feel hungry again. It's good to feel properly fueled and not bloated by unhealthy choices.

I need to get active again - for my mental health as well as my physical health - but at the moment, it's still good feeling in control. It's forward motion in a positive direction. I know that when I was pregnant with Noah, I gained a lot of weight, but stayed healthy (great blood pressure, no diabetes) due to many good choices, as well as the fact that when I got pregnant, I was in the best shape of my adult life. When it comes time for Baby #2, I want to make sure I'm in excellent health again.

255 is a significant number. It means that I'm down 30 pounds from the day I went to the hospital to deliver Noah, and that I'm 45 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight. It's still a lot to lose, but since this week, Noah is exactly 4.5 months old, it's making the "nine months on, nine months off" idea seem pretty feasible. Even if I don't get exactly there, I know I can get pretty close. It doesn't feel so impossible anymore.

It's also an even decade for me - 90 pounds down from my highest recorded weight from July 2010, so only 10 more to go until I can reclaim my 100 pound loss. I'm ready to own that again!

Finally, it's important because my long-term goal is to be around 155 - so, at 255, that means I have 100 pounds left to lose. The last pound in the triple-digits-left-to-lose.

It's not so scary right now. I'm in a streak of motivation - which makes sense. When I feel good, I want to keep feeling good. The nightly salads are helping me feel fuller and more satisfied, even though they haven't been very creative - I think all week I just did eggs over salad. I'll try and get more diverse next few days (I guess I have to, actually ... we're out of eggs). I've pretty much eliminated my after-dinner snacking. I've been doing well with water, but then again, that really hasn't been a problem since Noah was born - nursing him makes me so thirsty!

Tomorrow, we're going to be busy: Matt has a race in the morning, then we're going to stay home for a few hours so I can try and pump off a few bottles of milk for when I work next week. Then, in the evening, a few friends of ours down here are having a party. My goal is to have a good time, socialize with other adults (most nights, I just want to snuggle the baby I missed so much all day, then eat dinner and go to bed), and stay in control of my eating. I'll probably eat beforehand, and then just stick to water. No sweet treats - I know that would derail me, for sure. Some days are better than others; I just know that right now, that's not a great idea.

I'm scheduled for a 5K in a month and I haven't ran in about a year. I finally got my first paycheck last week, so I think this week I might get some new running shoes since my old ones have holes worn through them. I'll either order them or convince Matt to stop playing GTA5 for an hour or so and take me to the outlet mall. If I run-walk - or even just walk - it, I still want to do the race!

What about you? How was your week? What kind of running shoes do you have? I have always bought New Balances, only because the first race packet I ever picked up was at a New Balance store so I had a coupon; after I tried a pair, I loved them, and picked the same exact shoe when they needed to be replaced. I'm just curious what folks think, especially people who do varied kinds of terrain when they run. My runs around here will be almost exclusively pavement or treadmill, but there are a ton of races on the beach or in the woods.


Wii Fit & A Bet said...

I do the same thing with shoes. Find a famous footwear or some other discount store and see what you can see...go without the baby. :) you'll make better choices. Trust me on this one. I bought shoes once because I NEEDED to get out of the store and NEEDED a new pair. :) best of luck. My 5k is tomorrow :)

sheila said...

New Balance is the only running shoe left that is still made in the USA. Good choice to support them!

Debby said...

I am not a runner by any means, but I really like Ryka shoes. I have a weird foot, where my heel is really narrow compared to the rest of my foot, and these fit excellent. I've never had issues with my feet hurting in them either.

Rae said...

I started with NB and then got Nike. Will go back to NB next time. You are doing great! Your blog continues to inspire me!

Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

I'm in clod-hopper stability shoes. I chose the Saucony brand since they were the least hideous!

Unknown said...

I love Brooks! I would suggest, however, going to a local running store. It may cost a little more money than the outlet mall, but they find shoes that will work for your feet! Also, unlike a lot of other stores they generally have a good return policy if it does not work out.

Sarah said...

I love my New Balance shoes! They have a nicely-sized toe box so I can put gel soles in if I need to without cramping my toes. They're also perfect for my arches. I tried Brooks "support" shoes for high arches, and they dug in and hurt (plus they were heavy). I got a pair that wasn't quite as "supportive", and they still hurt. So I went back to New Balance.

New Balances feel a little bit too wide, so I might buy a regular fit instead of wide next time. They feel okay around the middle of my foot, but they feel pretty wide around my heel and ball. So we'll see how the regular fit does.

Unknown said...

New Balance for me, too. They just fit better than any other shoe I've tried. I hope your evening out was fun. Doing those kinds if things when you're tired can be so hard!