September 6, 2013

Roses and thorns

I wanted to post all week, but it's been insanely hectic. Between family events, religious events, and general overwhelmed-ness from work and life, I've been forced to take a break this week.

  • My mom had a stroke. She's home now, doing a little better. But still having trouble walking unassisted, and when we called her last night, she got a little disoriented. Very worrisome.
  • My sister and her fiancĂ© found out they are expecting a baby - so Noah is going to have a little cousin next spring!
  • Wednesday afternoon we went to the DMV, and I took the beginner's permit test. I passed, so now I have 180 days before I can try for a license. The woman at the DMV asked if I was a first-time driver, and I explained that yes, I was, because in Chicago I had public transit but here you need a car. She laughed and said yes, "unless you have a horse." Not kidding.
  • Wednesday was also the first night of Rosh Hashanah, so we went to a local shul for services. Very different from our Chicago synagogue experience, but still a good evening.
  • All 100+ students of mine have an exam next week, so this week has seen them in my office a lot, as well as sending tons of questions in e-mails. Plus all the lesson planning and grading ... it's exhausting, for sure. But I always always always love my job and am grateful for the ability to go to work and teach every day.
  • I had a lot of trouble pumping milk for Noah last weekend, and we had to drive 60+ miles to the closest Target store that carried a part we needed for the pump. Between that day, an accidentally spilled bottle, and a bottle brought to the services on Wednesday, we came up short in our milk supply, and Matt brought Noah to work today for me to nurse between classes. I'm stressing a lot about getting the freezer stocked this weekend, and I'm dreading the idea that we're probably going to have to put him on formula this next week.

So, yeah. A lot on my plate.

As far as eating, Matt and I decided that for all of September, we're going to eat a salad every day. So every night, I've been having salads for dinner. The weight is slowly but surely coming off (down 2 pounds from last week) and I'm feeling lighter. I'm still in well-worn territory, though. Getting under 255 will be a milestone, I've been bouncing around between 256-260 for too long. I'm hoping this is the trick to help jumpstart my motivation. I've been taking pictures of every salad - I'll share some in a post next week.

I'll finally get my first paycheck on the 15th, and money is going to be tight for a while. Supporting one person on this salary would be great, even two would be okay. But a whole family, with a new car and student loans and a baby who needs diapers ... we're not going to have too much wiggle room for a while. Still, I'm thinking about what to get myself as a small reward after a year of exhausting applications and tears shed over failed interviews, all on top of being pregnant, then the mother of a newborn, then relocating 1000 miles away with an infant. When I moved to California, I got myself a Garmin, but since I don't have a computer anymore, that's pretty much useless. (Plus, I'm not really running much [or at all] these days, and when I do, it'll be on the treadmill.) This time, I'm thinking a pedometer. I might want a Fitbit down the line, but I just don't think that's in the budget right now. I just want to track steps, try and do 10K a day like I did in October 2010. It's a fun challenge.

What about you? How was your week? Any fun weekend plans? 


Unknown said...

Oh Mary,
I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. Good to hear she seems to have come out of it ok. It'll take time for her brain to heal though. Very exciting that Noah will have a little cousin close in age. Also exciting that you're going to learn how to drive. So much stuff going on in your life, on top of a new job and raising and supporting a family. I may try using a pedometer as a well....I'm in need of a goal right now. I just completed a Duathlon 2.5K walk/run, 10k bike, 2.5k walk/run last weekend so I'm in need of a new goal. My weights been in a stall pattern lately too. I can't seem to get out of the 230s!

CJN said...

Hi! I have been lurking here for a while now :) I think you are doing great! I know how overwhelming it felt when my son was born. It is 2 years since then and I still feel overwhelmed ever so often :)
Congrats on the 2 lb loss:)

ikylilcrafter said...

i know how incredibly stressful nursing can be. (How do i know he's getting enough? I can't track how many ounces he's drinking! What if I don't make enough milk, ack! I can't be away that long, I need to nurse the babe!)

But from someone that's "been there, done that" the main advice I give all newish moms, it's try not to stress about it and no matter what do NOT guilt yourself over it. If you want to breastfeed, then you just do your best, and if a bottle of formula needs to be given here or there (or even more frequently) you know what? He's still gonna grow up to be an awesome big kid/adult and you're still an awesome momma that loves her child. With all the other new stressors in your life, try not to let feeding your sweet little guy one of them.

Great idea about a salad a day. I should implement something like that.

Amy said...

Oh my! What a week!! I hope your mom has a speedy recovery! It must be hard being away for all of that.

I am excited to see your salad post. I am a huge salad person and have one 90% of the time with dinner.

I've had a crazy week too.. is something in the air?

Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

Since my Charlie came 5 weeks early and I had preg-induced hypertension, I guess that had a lot to do with why I wasn't making enough milk. I had to supplement w/formula to make sure he thrived. It was great because since I was home, I didn't pump and Dad could feed him. Fast forward 22 months and Chelsea was a big girl at 8lbs 4 oz, nursing in recovery. She rarely got a bottle, which then made life a living hell for Dad when I did get to go anywhere! She wouldn't take a bottle at all. You'd think I would've known better the 2nd time around!

And now Charlie and you are learning how to drive at the same time! Too funny.

Debby said...

Sounds like things just keep on coming! I hope your mom gets better and good luck on the driving test! I've had my license since 14 so it's nuts to me to think of not driving. But I live in South Dakota, so yeah, we don't have the public transit like Chicago.
Good luck on the eating salads and you definitely deserve something after all you've been through.

My sister was here for a visit, but today is all about Netflix and being a bum as I'm going on week 5 of bronchitis and I think I just need to rest. I've been running around a lot

L said...

Congrats on your efforts to breastfeed! I never downplay formula, but since I have breasted two babies I always feel a sense of comraderie with other breastfeeding moms. It is very hard especially when you work but its doable. However don't stress yourself out over it, if you have to give baby formula it's not the end of the world. I breastfed my first one until he was six months old. After I went back to work I couldn't get the hang of pumping and storing so I decided to stop.
With my second one it was all very easy and I went back to work and I got the hang of pumping and he was exclusively on breast milk for an entire year. He's now a toddler and I haven't had the heart to wean him. And although many people, especially other women, seem to want to judge my decision to keep breast feeding him only we know what works for us.
Yes the most judgmental are other women, you can't win. Some will judge you if you do only formula others if you breastfeed too long or at all or god forbid in public.
Only you know what's best for your child. So take it in stride and enjoy because its true, it goes by way too fast.

kristi said...

Hope things get better / easier for you. I went on an interview last week so hopefully something will happen and soon!