August 2, 2013

Roses and thorns

I'm down two pounds this week, to 258. It's still up a bit from two weeks ago, but I'm focusing on the positives. This has been a completely crazy week, and it's going to get crazier before it gets more sane.

We got so much accomplished this week: got my official offer, accepted it, found an apartment, found a few potential tenants to take over our Chicago apartment, rented the moving truck, bought plane tickets for the family members coming to help us with the trek (my sister Lisa and Matt's mom),  packed up most of our stuff.


He's not much help with the packing, but he's still good company. He actually decided to start teething this week, which has been an added stressor. My usually easygoing smiley baby is drooly, runny nosed, crying, and chewing on his fingers constantly. It's been better the past day or two, the teeth look like they've broken the skin, but it was an exhausting three or four days.

The next week is going to be even crazier - making sure one of our apartment applicants is approved for his or her own lease, the end of the packing, moving the big stuff, airport pickups, one last deep clean of the apartment, and saying goodbyes.

Leaving Chicago is bittersweet.


My love for the city was a good part of why I left California. I missed the skyline, the trains, the culture. I missed my friends, and I especially missed Matt.

But.

Visiting Chicago and living there are two different beasts. Maybe it was because I was pregnant, or maybe it was because I didn't have a teaching job, but my Chicago experience wasn't the one it had been when I was teaching full time. There wasn't time or money or energy for all the things we wanted to do. That, and - the city felt, for lack of a better word, "stale." The friends who had urged me to move back were on a different schedule - time spent together was less and less, until it was none, and they moved out of town without saying goodbye. It hurt - a lot - and for a while, I was angry. I left California for this.

What helped me move on was recognizing all the right reasons I left California: to be with Matt, to get away from an unhealthy environment, to leave a school where I didn't feel supported as a faculty member.

All these issues are resolved with the move to South Carolina.

Matt is going with me, and we're bringing our beautiful son. With him by my side, I know I'll be able to work through even my toughest weight loss challenges - getting back to my pre-pregnancy weight, running again, staying focused and not overdoing it with either permitting or restricting of foods. And after talking with the faculty members on my interview team, as well as the Dean of the College of Humanities who offered me my position, I'm incredibly enthusiastic about the school. The college is very supportive of languages and has a goal of program growth, which is exactly what California failed to provide.

The next week, while filled with goodbyes, will also have some off-plan meals. We have a few places we want to go out to eat before leaving the city - Hot Doug's, for one, plus a farewell dinner at our favorite Moroccan place with our two best friends. They're the couple we were closest to while here, especially during the pregnancy - leaving that kind of support is going to be a big challenge. We have a lot of really good friends who are still here, and it's hard to leave them as we head south. Still, it's what we need to do right now - for my career, and for Matt's, and for our family.

There won't be a weigh-in post next Friday, as we will be on the road. However, I hope to post again Monday or Tuesday before leaving, and again as soon as we are settled in our new place. Thank you everyone for your well wishes and support, it means a lot to us as we work through this big transition!

10 comments:

Losing The Rolls said...

Woohoo for the scale moving in the right direction, good work Mary!

Why do you have to find tenants for your apartment in Chicago? Doesn't the building landlord or manager do that? I'm from the Pacific NW, so maybe things are different out here.

Best wishes for the whole moving process. The future looks bright for you and your family. Have fun.

Jennica said...

Wow, you show such incredible courage in your attitude about the move. I so admire how you just make a decision about what you want for yourself and your family and you go for it. You encourage me to focus on the positive and keep moving towards my goals. I hope the move goes beautifully for you guys and I'm really looking forward to reading about your adventures in South Carolina!

Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

So happy that everything is falling into place for you. I can't wait to hear about the new place and your new position!

Jitterfish (WJW) said...

You have so much going on, its fantastic that you are able to keep your focus on weight loss. Congrats on that loss too.

Poison said...

So incredibly happy for you Mary. It's about time things started going your way. I like seeing you becoming your more and more positive self again. <3

BU said...

Is tht at Bjorne? Try to slide the crosspiece down so its in the small of your back and the straps are further apart on your shoulders. You'll be mazed how much more comfortable it is.

Rae said...

I'm from SC. A wonderful state with the beach on one side and mountains on the other. Many outdoor activitites can be done in a day and on a dime. College football reigns here. And it can be more humid than you can imagine in the midlands. I think you will love it. So rich in history as well as southern hospitality. Hope you settle in soon and get to enjoy the end of these hot summer nights.:)

Bluezy said...

I sheesh how much I have missed about you. Keep the faith. Lovely child.

Evangelista Nick said...

Lovely child! I can't wait for new stories about you!

downsizers said...

For the teething an old wooden clothes pin with the the knob on top works great. Boil it to sterilize it and he can gnaw on that and get those teeth through. What cutie.