July 15, 2013

Okay, sort of

Today I had my final appointment with Tracy, the midwife I worked with during my pregnancy. It was bittersweet - as glad as I am to have Noah here and to have regained a feeling of control over my body, I absolutely loved Tracy and I had an incredible birthing experience, so it was a tough goodbye.

As for the medical whatnot, everything was great. My blood pressure was back to my healthy, normal pre-delivery level, and my weight was down nearly 30 pounds. My hemoglobin was slightly lower than normal, but not of major concern - just keep taking vitamins and up the intake of iron-rich foods like dark, leafy greens. The muscles in my abdomen are right back where they were before they spread apart to make room for Noah, and all the lady bits are right as they should be.

Finally, the moment I'd been waiting for.

So, can I run?

And I got the answer I was hoping for, sort of.

Yes, sort of.

Basically, she said it would be fine to run again, but with the caveat that I don't overdo it in an attempt to lose weight too quickly. If I restrict my calories too much, or if I burn too many and don't eat enough back, my body's ability to make milk will suffer.

She's right to express concern. Tracy knows my history with disordered eating, and she knows that my biggest concerns at my prenatal checkups were first, the baby's healthy, and second, how soon I would be able to get back to losing weight.

That said, though, Noah's health and well-being are absolutely my top priorities, and making sure he is properly nourished is more important to me than getting back to onederland or running another half marathon. I'm trying my best right now to both listen to my body and use what I have learned about eating well and exercising to find the best of both worlds: keeping me *and* my baby in our best health.

When I start to run again, my goal is just to be able to run. I'd like to run races again, of course, but I'd only consider a 5, 8, or 10K race for the next six months or so. Anything longer than 10K and I would need to supplement with a Gu or some kind of energy gel - that, I would say, is too much for now. Plus, looking back on my experience with longer distance training, I always struggled with weight loss during those periods. It was too hard to find a good balance with calories in and out. At 10K or under, I can burn enough calories to lose weight without feeling deprived and completely ravenous for a day or two after.

In the meantime, I'm still walking with my little chest weight and watching my calorie intake carefully. I've been doing well with 1650 as my daily goal, and my macros are usually pretty close to the 40-30-30 I am aiming for. Breakfast is usually a 2% yogurt - I've shifted away from the 0% because the calorie difference is really insignificant (Fage is 120 vs. 140; Chobani is 140 vs. 160) and the higher fat is better for nursing. Lunch is a Lean Cuisine - I stand by my opinion that they're not for everyone but they work for me. I usually have a snack in the morning and another in the afternoon - I like mixing a serving of low sodium peanuts (160) with half a serving of Craisins (65), it tastes just like PB&J! We tried the reduced sugar Craisins and I liked them, but the calorie difference is, again, insignificant (50 cal for a half serving instead of 65) and instead of sugar, they use artificial sweeteners - which I try to avoid. Also, for some reason the reduced sugar Craisins have over 3 times the fiber of the regular ones. Finding that out the hard way was how I got into the habit of the half serving vs. the whole one!

I'm trying to get more into fruits and veggies as snacks/sides, and get away from things like granola bars, which tend to be high calorie and low satiety for me. Even with the crazy heat and humidity, I'm trying to roast a pan of veggies with dinner as often as I can - brussels sprouts and asparagus are favorites. I like roasting broccoli too, but the one night where Noah barely slept and was fussy all night was after I ate a lot of broccoli with dinner, so I can't help but think the two are related. I'm going to try again tomorrow and see if/how it affects him.

What about you? What are your go-to healthy snacks? We've been gobbling down cherries lately, the little produce market near our apartment has them on sale (they're usually crazy expensive here!) so we're taking advantage of that, for sure! They're delicious, plus the stem and pit make it a process, so I find that I'm really mindful while eating them.


Losing The Rolls said...

Glad to hear everything was on track at your check-up. You are taking great care of your body and will be able to run the distances you want. Interesting about the broccoli and possibly affecting Noah.

I'm still trying to find a daily routine that works for me. Right now I'm not snacking between meals or if I do it will be some whole almonds or some veggies.

Have a great week.

Unknown said...

Enjoy running again! Did you see yesterday's Oatmeal? http://theoatmeal.com/comics/running

Anonymous said...

Sounds like you are really doing well! So happy for you! My favorite go to snack right now is frozen grapes! I cannot get enough of them! Love! Have a great day!

Sarah said...

Best wishes with the interview! I'm so excited for you.

"Sort of" is better than "no running". :) It's going to feel so great to get out there again.

I've been snarfing down blueberries lately, like a pint at a time. It's crazy. They're like crack. I always buy a pint or two, intending to make blueberry pancakes for Brent, but then I eat them in front of the TV. I suppose it's better than unhealthy snacks, but the calorie count is kind of nuts once you reach "1 pint".

Taryn said...

I have been eating cherries a lot too. I live right near where they're grown and just happened to go on an overnight trip there the other night. I came home with farm fresh cherries, raspberries, peaches, nectarines, potatoes, green onions and locally made preservative free jam. Mmmmmmm

kenny said...

I very much enjoy hard boiled eggs.

Ashley said...

I love apples and peanut butter! Or some granola in vanilla yogurt. Congrats on being able to run!

Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

So happy you got the go-ahead to run! My go-to snack are pretzels and Pop Corners or wasabi rice crackers. Definitely can't eat THEM too fast!