April 19, 2013

Lost and found

Days are flying by so quickly now. Honestly, despite more than a few days that felt like they lasted forever, the whole pregnancy feels like a blur, and the past week or so has been on hyperspeed. We're due a week from Saturday, and based on my checkup with my midwife on Monday, we're right in the thick of "any day now" territory. There's so much I'm ready to experience, and twice as much that I feel unprepared for. It's stressful, but there's so much comfort in knowing that so soon, my sweet little boy will be in my arms, and I'll finally be able to see his little face and hold the hands and feet that have been kicking and punching me for months now.

Pregnancy for me has been so much like weight loss, in that I've sought online communities through blogging. I'm the first of my friends and one of the first of my generation of family to experience this, so, like the task of losing hundreds of pounds, I wanted to find folks who understood what I was going through and with whom I could share joys, as well as commiserate. I know quite a few other bloggers who are pregnant right now, and it's been such a joy having them by my side as we all experience this together.

On Monday evening, one such lady posted to Twitter that she felt selfish. Selfish for being pregnant and "bringing a child into this crazy world." This was understandable, of course, after hours and hours of updates and media saturation following the bombings at the Boston Marathon. I understood what she meant, and how she felt. And I offered her this: that having a child, especially right now, is not selfish at all. This is "the epitome of 'be the change you wish to see in the world.'"

And I honestly believe that.

On Tuesday evening, after a night out with friends celebrating Matt's birthday, we were rushing home - the baby kicked me so hard, I knew I was going to be sick. Matt dropped me off, then went to park the car. And somewhere between the car and our apartment, he lost our brand new camera. The fancy, slightly expensive one we budgeted for and got a few weeks ago so we could learn how to use it before Baby arrives.

When we realized it was missing, we went outside to search. At the place where Matt last saw it was my sweatshirt, but no camera. It was gone. We were upset. Beyond upset. Mad. Angry. Frustrated. But I kept a cool head and just left a note on the car nearest to where the camera had likely been, listing my phone number and offering a reward for it returned, even if we just got the memory card back since it had many sentimental photos already on there. And we went inside, and I told Matt again and again: it's just metal and plastic. It's going to be okay. It sucks, but it's absolutely not the worst that could happen. 

And in the morning, my phone rang.

A neighbor found the note, and called us as soon as she could.

She also found the camera, and had brought it inside before the torrential downpours had started.

And when I went to meet up with her, she adamantly refused the reward money I kept trying to give her, saying we need it for our new baby and besides, this was just the right thing to do.

And my heart was so full.

With Baby set to arrive any day now, I can't help but focus on good people and experiences like this, rather than the senseless acts of violence that happened not 48 hours earlier. There are so many good, honest people in the world. People who aren't looking to hurt you, people who do the right things for the right reasons.

Matt and I want our son to be a great person - a good citizen, a loyal friend, a loving son. And the way we will teach him that is through our own example. There are a lot of really bad people in the world, people who do hurtful things, people who will upset him, people who will put him down and try to make him feel small and unimportant. Our job as his parents is to educate him that they are wrong, they are unhappy with themselves and their own lives, and that they are absolutely the minority. There is far more good in the world than evil.

And I honestly believe that, too.


Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

I burst into tears when you said the phone rang and someone saved your camera for you. I know how hard things have been for you and I'm so glad the story had a very happy ending. Now make sure you download every day!

AmbyLand said...

The last month or so goes in slow motion. I felt exactly the same way. I just wanted to see her face.

Fit Mom said...

excellent post today!!

I cant wait to hear about your birthing experience!!

Unknown said...

We need to keep bringing new people that are really wanted and that will be raised in love to offset those who are messed up. I truly think that there are way way more good, caring people.

Amy said...

I'm so glad you got your camera back!

Also, I cannot believe that baby is imminent. Time flies indeed. I wish you a safe (and short) labor and delivery and a happy and healthy baby boy.

CarolineCalcote said...

aw, great story. Nice people are awesome.

Anonymous said...

This is such a beautiful post and was a real pleasure to read after This Week. I can't believe your due date is almost here! That is just nutty. Bet you guys are super excited :)

Weight Wars said...

Great news that you are well and the camera was found, I can imagine your upset and joy :)

If anything, for me the boston marathon bombings have shown me several things the power of one to galvanise many. The humanity shown after the bombing makes the world right with me.

Angela @ Honey, I Shrunk the Mom said...

What a great post and what a great story about the camera! You're right, the world is full of good!! :) best wishes to you and your little family in the coming weeks.

Lealah said...

Sometimes you can get so sickened by people and society and then something like your camera being returned happens to remind you of the good in people. Great story, we need to have those stories to make it all worth the effort!

Tammy said...

There are so many good people in the world..we just don't hear about them as much as we hear about the evil ones. I'm glad that you got your camera back.:) I can't wait to hear about your new baby boy!!:) Much love to all three of you.<3

Anonymous said...

Good story! And I like the "be the change". I was expecting our first child when the whole Iraq war started and I thought the same thing - "why bring children into this?" ... but oh the joys we've had with our children!
Glad you found the camera! Awesome. Yesterday I went to get a cart at the grocery store and a woman's purse was in it - I gave it to a staff member. Strange find.