November 1, 2012

Skeletons

The other night, we finally finished telling our families, so it was time to tell our friends. We decided to announce it at a Halloween parade with an idea I saw on Pinterest:


Possibly hard to see, it was a bit dark - we're skeletons, and mine has a baby skeleton on the belly! (Instead of buying the iron-on transfer, I painted them myself onto black shirts with glow-in-the-dark fabric paint.) It was a terrific success, and our friends have been amazingly congratulatory and incredibly supportive.

It has been so wonderful to have this kind of positive atmosphere the past few days, because I've been having a bit of a tough time. It's mostly based in the fact that I'm not feeling like myself - after a very active year maintaining my weight, I'm feeling both uncomfortable and self-conscious lately.

Some truths:
  • The baby weighs about an ounce and a half right now, but I've gained about 15 pounds. I'm supposed to gain 25-35 through the whole nine months. We're not due until April.
  • I understand the gain (no more running, plus with almost everything making me queasy and nauseated, I ate mostly pasta and crackers for the first few months), but I'm still uncomfortable with it.

I spoke with my midwife about it, given my history of disordered eating and super obesity, and she said that one good thing was that even though I am not at my goal weight, I'm incredibly healthy, and all my vitals are perfect. That's good for me and great for baby. As for the weight gain, she said that even though running is out for now, I was very active before, so I can still be active as long as I'm not overexerting myself. I want to join the gym next to where I work - even an hour on a stationary bike four or five times a week would be better than nothing - but I haven't been able to yet, since I'm trying to get my financial situation in order (transitioning to depending on my paychecks instead of continuing to use my savings from teaching).

A few things I am grateful for:
  • A due date in late April, so I'll be ready to exercise and lose weight again in the summer (much better than having to restart in the middle of a Chicago winter)
  • An incredible partner who is understanding and motivating, and will help me not only control my weight gain but will support me as I work my way back down to my pre-pregnancy weight and then lower to my long-term goal weight

I have a lot of diet-related thoughts and ideas, but I'll save them for a post of their own. I want to keep blogging about weight and exercise, etc., and keep most of my baby-specific things to a separate blog, maybe. I have so many questions and so much to say, I need an outlet for it!