July 19, 2012

HDC: Day 20

Hundred Day Challenge:
Day 1: 189
Day 10: 189
Day 20: 197

Welp. I really, really hesitated about posting this. I'm embarrassed. I'm ashamed. And I'm disappointed, though not surprised ... go figure, binge eating and not exercising leads to gains. Huge ones. Especially when my binges are very sweet, followed by salty, and always highly processed - my body reacts hugely to these things after trying to eat lean protein, fruits, and veggies almost exclusively while also minimizing processed foods.

From 189 to 196 overnight, then 198 the next day, and stayed there for a while. Back down to 197 today, and trying not to beat myself up about it. Physically, I feel awful - my body feels extra big over my "comfortable" maintaining range of this past year, anything under 194. I feel cumbersome and broken, a situation not aided by the fact that most of my upper back and shoulders are still recovering from a second-degree sunburn. It looks as bad as it feels.

Problem: my longest run since leaving California was 8.25 miles, and that was a day before the bike ride and the sunburn.

Problem: I'm scheduled to run a half marathon on Sunday.

With the sunburn, I was unable to move or even get properly dressed for days. Then, I could put on a sports bra, as long as the straps weren't up. Only about two days ago was my back healed enough to put a bra an entirely, so I set out to try and run. Yesterday I did two slow-ish miles - good, but not great - and stopped. My legs could have kept going for hours - my body craves exercise - but I could feel the tender new skin on my back being irritated, and decided to turn back and walk home.

I'm taking the next few days to heal up - a run tomorrow, perhaps, but no more than 5 miles - and have been using lotion for extra dry skin to help with all the new skin on my back. It's working very well so far, and I'm hopeful about being able to finish Sunday's half. It won't be a PR by any means - my goal is simply to finish.

Lesson learned about underestimating the gravity of forgetting sunblock.

My goals for days #11-20 were pretty much all a bust: keep up the binge-free streak (clock reset several times), to get better about not weighing daily (I feel a need to closely monitor post-binges), and to reduce premade meals and avoid the temptation of the salad bar (better but not perfect yet). The goal I did best with was staying hydrated.

To improve morale, I got a haircut, plus lip and eyebrow waxing. It felt good to invest in myself a little, in my appearance. It was also meant to be a bit of a confidence booster: I have a very important job interview tomorrow morning, and I want to feel as good about myself as possible.

My goals for days #21-30, then, are such:

  • Keep up my current binge-free streak (today is Day 2 - Day 100 won't coincide with the marathon now, but I absolutely swear, there will be a Day 100 for me)
  • Finish the half marathon
  • Resume marathon training (running 3x/week, being active on non-running days, investigate gym options)
  • Do well at my job interview tomorrow
  • Stick to a budget (I've been way too relaxed with my spending. Need to tighten the purse strings. Have been researching ideas on Pinterest, especially about grocery/household spending.)
What about you? How are you doing with your challenge goals? What are your goals for the next ten days? Any races or events this weekend?

20 comments:

Ellesar said...

I really do feel for you. I too have put weight back on, BUT you have still lost SO much! Your 'addictions' to junk food are probably going to be a lifelong struggle, but that does not mean that they will make it impossible to lose the weight. It will just take longer.

Tim said...

You're looking fabulous, Mary! Good luck with the interview.

It totally sucks about the sunburn but you've learnt from that you'll bounce back stronger.

I wish you all the best with your half marathon. Finish it and I bet i'll see your smile all the way in England.

P.S - I'm doing a 100 day challenge soon too. I might also steal your post-it note idea for a countdown! Thinking about it, I'll probably steal lots of other ideas from you too so apologies in advance! hahaha :)

Bailey @ Onederland or Bust! said...

Sorry about the gain and the struggles, but I'm conifident that you'll be back on track soon enough.

You look great! I'm sure you'll rock the interview :)

Mich said...

The only people who should be embarrassed or ashamed are those bloggers who pull a vanishing act when things don't go well and pretend that all weight loss occurs in a straight line with sunshine and roses...

Good luck in your job interview tomorrow (or, as a friend of mine likes to say: "make you own luck".)

And my goal for the next ten days is to continue to increase the weights on my lifts at the gym.

timothy said...

glad that sunburn is healing, just stay focused on your half coming up, sending good energy your way for the interview. you KNOW you can do anything/everything you want to darlin you've PROVEN that time and again so stop secondguessing yourself and getting in your own way and just let it happen!

Katrin said...

I feel your pain about the bingeing. I struggle with the same and sometimes right out of the blue when I have done well for so long. Just take it a day at a time and you will be back on track in no time.

Shannon said...

Sorry you've been struggling. Good luck with EVERYTHING! You look wonderful! I love your hair!

Reeseleese said...

Being a fellow Chicagoan, I'm assuming you're running the Rock n Roll half, which may be just what you need to enjoy the run and be a springboard for your training. My 100 day challenge of a food journal is keeping me in check, so thanks for your inspiration! I look forward to your updates so I know how much time we have left for the challenge. Keep the positive self-talk going (I know I need to work on this for me, too!)

Sarah said...

Good luck with your interview! Your hair looks pretty.

Denise said...

I'm feeling big and flabby, but because I'm now keeping closer track of my periods I know that I'm nearly pre-menstrual and this feeling is not permanent. But still. I will feel all awesome while I run outside, and then run at the gym (with a very large mirror in front of me) and think "My goodness. I have such a long way to go.

I actually thought about you while I was at my kickboxing class tonight, as I was huffing and puffing and not keeping up. I thought about how exercising was difficult for you but you kept going and eventually got to the point where you enjoyed it.

You are inspirational, Mary, and the fact that you're so honest only lends to your credibility. This shit is hard. And worth it.

Bluezy said...

Over friken night? Evil scale evil scale!

quirksandsmirks said...

I feel you! Since being out of work, I've put on about ten pounds. I may just steal your 100 days challenge to get me motivated. For now, though, I'm actually going to go vegetarian for the weekend to try and cleanse out my system, then really getting into gear to prep for a half marathon I'll be running Labor Day Weekend.
Best of luck on the job interview! I know you'll kick butt!

quirksandsmirks said...

I feel you! Since being out of work, I've put on about ten pounds. I may just steal your 100 days challenge to get me motivated. For now, though, I'm actually going to go vegetarian for the weekend to try and cleanse out my system, then really getting into gear to prep for a half marathon I'll be running Labor Day Weekend.
Best of luck on the job interview! I know you'll kick butt!

Frickin' Fabulous at 40 said...

I LOVE your new hairdo! Good luck on your interview today!!!

domwillrunforbeer said...

Good luck at the interview! I'm sure you'll nail it. :) Also, good luck this weekend - you can do it!

domwillrunforbeer said...

Good luck with the interview! You're going to nail it. :) Also, good luck this weekend - you can do it! Once you finish, you're going to feel better and get back into the groove.

Amy said...

I had a sunburn like that last summer. It was red for 2 months. So I completely understand!!

Your hair looks great!!

I hope you're able to push through and heal up to finish your half!

Life is tough in the summer, and even tougher when you're going through a transition so props to you for keeping on top of it, little slips will always happen, but it's what we do the next day that counts!

Bethie boops said...

Your haircut is so lovely! I hope your interview went well too. I am totally thinking about stealing your 100 day challenge- but maybe on drinking enough water? awesome.

Jessica said...

First- Your hair looks great!!! And good luck with the interview this week!!

I had my first binge in a while on Friday...around 10pm. So frustrated with myself.

Tammy said...

Weight SUCKS. It takes forever to lose it and a couple of days to gain like 10 lbs. But you WILL be good and WILL get back on track. How did the marathon go? How did your job interview go? I hope all was great!