February 10, 2012

Roses and thorns

I feel amazing.

Everything has been going really well the past few days - at least food and exercise-wise. Work and life stress have been tough, and tension was high earlier in the week. I'm really proud of my decision to go to bed early instead of eat my frustrations - a binge would've been counterproductive and just caused more stress. A good night's sleep was just what I needed!

And - I can tell I've lost weight. The tell-tale signs of being at or below my Chicago lowest weight are all here ... my loose skin on my stomach is extra loose (as are my jeans and all my shirts), my collarbones are popping out a bit more, and there's a bone or tendon or something in my forearm that sticks out more than usual.

It freaked me out when I saw it in August, and it's still pretty strange today. This time, though, I'm deciding not to self-sabotage because it. Yes, it's weird. So are a lot of things about my smaller body that I've discovered along the way. These are just things to get used to.

Oddities and strangeness aside, I really do feel amazing, and not just physically. I'm smiling all the time and back to being my almost-excessively-cheerful self like I was in Chicago. It's so nice to be back to my normal.

This weekend, I'll be grading a mountain of exams, reading for a book club meeting on Monday night, and I have a race on Sunday morning. I'm pretty nervous about the race for some reason, even though it's just 10K. I'm biking to and from the race, which is I think where my nerves come in. Today I'll be doing a trial run of biking, then running, then biking to see if Sunday's plan is feasible. We shall see.

Somewhat related, if anyone missed Katie's announcement yesterday, I'm super excited to finally talk about something we've been planning for a little while:

we are going to be running a Ragnar Relay next January!

Our team is coming together still but essentially, it's a group of all people who've lost significant amounts of weight and became runners. I'm so excited, not only to participate in such a unique event (and in such an amazing place! Miami to Key West, Florida!), but to do so with such inspiring people! Katie is one of my favorite maintenance bloggers, and I'm pumped at the chance to run with her and with several other incredible success stories. I'll be posting more about the event and our team as it all comes together.

Thinking about the Relay team has also been a motivator for me lately. I'm not nearly close to being "at goal" yet, but the Relay isn't for another 330 days (not that I'm counting) ... so I've got my eyes on the prize, so to speak, thinking about how badly I want to be in my best physical condition by the time we all come together to run. Binges won't get me there. Neither will excuses. But hard work and focus will.

What about you? What are your weekend plans? Are there any weightloss-related body changes that you've found to be odd or surprising? Have you ever done a Ragnar Relay or any other non-traditional race?


E. Jane said...

It's so interesting that you have mentioned how your body shows signs of weight loss in certain areas. I also have noticed that, in my wrist area (bone stick out more) and in my neck. I love to see those changes! Have a great weekend. We're leaving for Florida tomorrow!

LynnieG said...

It's finally cold here in WI, so the weekend will be some house-cleaning, healthy eating and treadmill walking. I read Katie's announcement yesterday and was so excited for all of you! I actually said to myself - 'I'm so happy for Mary to run in this'. I think it's nuts that I think of you and Katie like that. Maybe it's my mothering instinct since I'm old enough to be your (and Katie's) mother!
Have a great weekend! Lynne

Christie Farrar said...

Congratulations on all of your achievements Mary!

Are you still going to your book club with the condescending women?

Denise said...

I have never heard of the Ragnar Relay - and I'm from Florida! Good luck. It sounds like it'll be a blast and I just love you and Katie (though I do not interact with her the way I do with you. I read her quietly and am super amazed and inspired by her progress). It will be so fun! I miss Florida.

This weekend we're going to a butcher shop to pick up some steak for a romantic dinner. Then we're going to a hockey game where I can scream curse words at hockey players and bang on the hard plastic and get out some aggression.

Tammy said...

I'm glad you're feeling great and doing so well Mary! Good luck with your race this Sunday. The relay race in Florida sounds exciting too.

As you know from my recent post, this weekend I need to work on a meal plan for next week. That will be my main priority followed by recuperating from a cold that is just coming on (thanks again 2 1/2 yr old nephew).

Katie Foster said...

I'm super excited to meet you too! And you're right, it's the perfect reason to stay on track with eating and exercise--for all of us!

Bluezy said...

Cours vite, Marie.

I have that deflate inflate feel factor on my loose belly skin, too. Even after just 50 lbs.

Leigh said...

I can actually feel where my hip bones are going to pop out. I still got some way to go, but they are no longer buried in tons of fat! Love the collar bones coming out too:) I'm so glad to hear that you are doing so well! Keep going!

Poison said...

omg wow that is sooo cool that ya'll are all gonna be running together!! I can't wait to see pictures of that!! ^_^

its nice to see you cheerier these days too! ^_^

Jitterfish (WJW) said...

I keep looking at my collar bones, I don't remember ever seeing them before really. Those small things are amazing aren't they!

Ann said...

Congrats on the loss, Mary. I think those physical cues are SO important to keep going - especially when the scale may or may not show a change. LOVE this!! :)

ChiChi said...

That is so freaking bad ass that you all are doing the Ragnar!! Girl you are going to be so ready for it! I can't wait to see pics!!

I want to do a Warrior Dash one day or something of the sort. You have really inspired me to get off the treadmill and get outside and run. Have a 10k in May 5, woo woo! lol

marisol said...

How awesome! I think planning to participate in such an event helps keep us on track. Bay 2 Breakers is doing that for me. I know that I want to go & enjoy myself but also kick some ass in that race. But it won't happen overnight & I gotta work hard.

A body change that I noticed in the past few weeks is that I can actually feel my collarbones. I can't yet "see"them but I can feel them. Such a cool NSV. Also I noticed that lately whenever I sit on my couch I cross my legs. I've never been able to do that. NEVER.

Anonymous said...

That is so exciting! I adore Katie's blog, you two are just rockstars!

Tim said...

Wow, love the idea of a relay. You'll have an amazing time with such inspirational people.

I found the other day that I can put my hand around my wrist so my thumb and middle finger can touch. I've never done that before. Little things like that excite me!!