September 16, 2011

Roses and thorns

195.

*exhale*

It's a one pound gain from last week's weigh in, but down four and a half pounds from Sunday morning, when I woke up after my last binge. So I can't feel too down about it, even though it's, once again, a week of two steps forward, one step back.

I'm losing a good amount of weight every week, I just regain too much first that it doesn't show. Frustrating, yes. But things are looking up, though.

This number was incredibly hard-earned. I have been on-track and motivated and putting in a great effort this week. My eating is better - not quite perfect again, but I've been figuring out things that work for me and things that don't; I have not binged, so I have absolutely no complaints. My biking has been reasonable - no extra-long bike rides to punish myself for overeating or for making poor food choices. It was a little easy to stay focused, to be honest, because I felt under the weather all week. I had no appetite some days, and my back was hurting a little for a couple of days so I kept the biking to a minimum and got to bed early (before 9 p.m.!) most nights.

I'm feeling positive as I head into the weekend. Here is my test of my resolve, I think. Staying on track during the week was mostly easy because I had so much work to do and events to distract me. The weekends are where I struggle, and so I'm going to be extra careful and try and find things to do to keep myself occupied over the next few days.

Positive thoughts to keep me motivated: this time next week, I'll be waking up in Chicago. I'll be spending Friday with friends and Saturday with my bien-aimé. Since it will be a weekend without my bike and away from MyFitnessPal, I want to do as well as I can before I get there, to build up the motivation to stay focused even without my usual routines. And I want to feel my healthiest when I'm there!

What about you? What is your usual weekend routine? What are your plans for this weekend?

5 comments:

Doing it My Weigh said...

I'm sure you will do just fine in Chicago! My weekend routine usually consists of a early Saturday workout which I round out by washing my car or cleaning the garage (amazing calorie burners) after my workout I usually just relax. This weekend I am thinking about trying hot yoga for the first time. wish me luck.

Poison said...

I keep dancing this weird little two step myself. Going up and down the same 5 lbs for the last 3 weeks now. lol. I need to get my shit together and stop all the backtracking. But I do feel good when I lose even though its something I've already lost and put back on. As of today though I'm up so not feeling so hot. lol. Glad to know I'm not alone in this struggle though. I'm soo excited for you to get to be with your love again though!! woot! I've been reading so many of your blogs lately without having time to comment on them. but yay. im happy you seem to be in a better place now and making new friends and such. :)

Tim said...

I bet your weekend can't come soon enough in Chicago! You'll have a great time.

My weekend usually revolves around what sport is on TV. Thankfully this weekend my football team is playing on TV, which is rare, so i'll be watching that and then i'll watch funny films to cheer myself up because my football team is bound to lose! :(

Waisting Time said...

Yeah for feeling positive! Someone once told me "weight loss is not linear" and boy did that ever fit me to a T.

Dinner out this weekend which is always a struggle for me. Nothing much else. Have a great one.

Meghan said...

Do you really realize how strong you are?

You moved across the country..
You got a new job..
You're living far from your new boyfriend..
..etc.

AND you are maintainig your weight? Your world has been completely flipped flopped and you're MAINTAINING?

Um, yeah. You're stong and if you can go through this I'm pretty sure you can do anything!!