September 2, 2011

Roses and thorns

My last official weigh in when I was in Chicago had me at 192 pounds.

My lowest weight after that was 189, after two days of sobbing and being too upset and nervous to eat.

The appetite came back, and I fed it with junk. I said I wouldn't binge, but I did. Big time. (I'm going to be writing about it next week.) And the day I left Chicago, I was at 194 pounds.

I had great intentions for the road trip, but fell off track incredibly. And the first week in California was full of stress, anxiety, restaurants, and really terrible off-plan decisions. I was back to old habits almost entirely - eating huge portions of foods I haven't touched in months, drinking soda, and pretty much no physical activity. After the move, I tried running, but could only do 3 miles at best, and it was discouraging; according to my half marathon training schedule - I'm supposed to be doing double-digit distances at this point.

Last Friday, I weighed in at 199, and I knew something had to give. It wasn't over 200 pounds, but it may as well have been - I could no longer say I had lost over 150 pounds, and with that, I realized how easy it would be to regain everything.

Last Thursday, I got my home internet connected, and started tracking on MyFitnessPal again. Last Friday, I got a bike and started riding everywhere - at least ten miles a day (that's my daily commute), usually more since I've been exploring the city. Last Saturday, I ran in my first organized race since the Bastille Day 8k. Didn't set any personal records, I'm sure - but I finished, and it felt great.

And today, I'm weighing in at 194. I'm back on track and it feels fantastic. I've got my second wind, and I'm ready to get back to work on looking and feeling my best. I feel healthy again, and that's so incredibly important.


I don't teach Fridays, so with Labor Day on Monday, I'm facing a four day weekend. I wish I could go back to Chicago for the weekend, but money will be tight this first month until I get paid. So, I'll be writing letters, finally finishing with my unpacking, biking for sure, and attempting to run again. It may be a while before I get back to my old distances, but I'm okay with that - I just miss running!

What about you? What are your plans for the weekend, whether it's a long one or not?

19 comments:

Tim said...

Congratulations on getting back on track. You've dealt with so many life changing decisions so to put on weight and then turn it around and lose weight is a great achievement.

Have you explored your town/city a lot since you moved there? Maybe this 4 day weekend will be a great opportunity to explore.

I've got a long 13 day weekend (Woo Hoo!!) so i'll be exploring Scotland. I cannot wait :)

Christina said...

Nice job getting right back on track. Yes, it would be incredibly easy to gain back everything. That's scary, isn't it?

Hang in there with the running! It sounds like your head is in the right place. :)

Hungry For a Quiet Mind said...

I'll be drinking lots of water, swimming in the pool, and mentally preparing for our family get-together.

Amy said...

I so need this long weekend and it's going to be awesome!! I need to get my bike back out over the next few months before it gets too cold.

marisol said...

Yay for getting back on track. This journey isn't perfect but you just have to remember to do your best. Your dealt with a lot in a short period of time and took a short detour.

After following a 5 week 5k walking plan, I am going back to the same location of the Do Life 5k and plan on seeing if I can beat my time.

"KT" said...

Fantastic job getting back to it. That's some commute and you'll probably be able to do it for months still, you new west coaster. :) I'm just starting to jog but I enjoy it and am not looking forward to having to use the treadmill when the snow comes!

Anonymous said...

You have proven to yourself that you can get right back on plan where you either keep yourself at a healthy weight or where you are back to losing. That is gonna be the key to keeping the pounds off I think. If you can endure crazy stress and do it that is really important.

New prof gets Friday off. What a terrible terrible situation that is for you. : )

Denise said...

So glad you're back on track! Food is only a comfort until your jeans don't fit. Then it's a pain in the ass.

My weekend plans include working (hooray for overtime!) and hopefully finishing up the currently wall-less bathroom. Have a great few days off!

Meghan said...

September is our month!!! We've totally got this :)

Poison said...

Well like everyone else has already said, of course I am thrilled for you that you are back on track. But I'm even more happy that you've shared your struggles with us too and don't claim to be perfect. I know we all mess up from time to time and that because this isnt just a diet its a new way of life... we are bound to slip up.

It's not about how many times you fall though. Its about how many times you get back up that really counts!

Congrats hon. I've only been following for the last week or so now I guess but I am really loving your blog!! :)

fatgirlwearingthin said...

I've been thinking of you a LOT, Mary. I think you're doing beautifully at handling this enormous amount of change as well as you are. I know you had a hiccup, but considering the stress of everything that's been going on, you've straightened things out in such a short amount of time. You had the control all along, I believe. You just had to figure out how to make everything fit back together in a new place. So proud of you.

SlimKatie said...

I'm so happy that you were able to get back on track so quickly! Sometimes it takes seeing a scary number on the scale to kick our asses into getting back on the wagon.

Ann said...

Love this blog, Mary. Seriously. Good for you for recognizing a problem and making a positive change! Lots of people (myself included) don't have the insight to STOP and get right back on track, and let the pounds creep on. GOOD JOB! So proud of you. You're a great example of healthy living!!! :)

Shannon said...

You have so much going on right now, Mary, but you were able to get it together without too much damage - you should be so proud of yourself! Have a wonderful weekend!

Anonymous said...

Feeling very inspired by you right now Mary. You are so strong and confident. You've had a couple of stressful weeks, veered off a bit and now you're back to making healthy choices. With a new bike and desire to run, I hope you enjoy the four day weekend exploring your new town.

Jitterfish (WJW) said...

Awesome on being back on track. I remind myself weight loss is a journey and we all take detours. But as long as you find your way back there you are going to reach your destination!

uppercasek said...

Congratulation Mary! Big life changes like yours are often comming with a lot of stress. You are doing a fantAstic job, keep it up!

This week end I have all my family over to celebrate my birthday. Lots of fun in sight... I will have to keep making good food choices. That's the plan.

Have a good one!

Krista said...

Mary, you are so inspiring! Congratulations, you are doing amazing. I wish I could find the dedication that you have, I feel like I'm sort of losing mine!

Keep up the fantastic work. You rock.

Hyla said...

Congratulations for getting back on track!! I missed this post because I started classes!