September 19, 2011

Fire up for Fall! Week One

Oh, glory be. A challenge!

My positive picture for the week:

I ran yesterday morning! I don't run very much anymore, and it's pretty depressing, to be honest. I miss the exciting feeling of training for a race, of getting out there and breaking my records. I was feeling pretty sad: I loved running because it made me feel like an athlete, and I just haven't felt like much of one lately. Then, I got encouraging messages from Tim, Amy, and Becks, and I laced up my shoes and went.

Tim was right - if you have a body, you're an athlete. It wasn't much, but it felt amazing. The distance is nothing like what I used to be capable of, but I'm certainly pleased with the 9:55 pace. Perfect kickoff for my fall!

What are your goals for the Fall Challenge? Why have you chosen those goals?

1. Get my BMI under 30 ("obese" to "overweight").
This is my next big weight loss goal; weighing 185 pounds or less will have me there. I *can* do this! It will be a very exciting victory - my BMI at my biggest was 55.7 (over 30 is obese, over 40 is morbidly obese, and over 50 is super obese). To not be any variety of obese will be a huge deal - like when I bought a size medium t-shirt for the first time, and knew what it felt like to not be any variety of large.

2. No eating after dinner.
I saw Katie set a similar challenge for herself and I think this would really help me with getting my eating in control again. My binges are rarely in the morning - it's always at night, after I've had dinner and should be "done" for the day (binges are never about physical hunger). I don't want to set a particular time, because I don't always eat at the same time. But no matter when I have dinner, when I've finished, I'm done for the day.

3. Run a sub-30 5k.
One of my summer goals that I missed out on. I can do it - I just need to get it official. I'll be looking for races - nearby, in cities I can easily travel to like San Francisco and Los Angeles, and back in Chicago since I will hopefully be spending one weekend a month there.

4. Stick to my budget.
I'm making more money at this job than I did at my last one, and I want to be saving as much as possible - in case anything comes up, but also, for things like bigger vacations that I couldn't take on my previous salary. (Not that my overnight in St. Louis wasn't amazing, but I think I'd like to dust off my passport!) My goal is to stick to a decent monthly budget - rent times two. That should cover my bills, groceries, household expenses (things for the kitchen, bathroom, laundry, etc.), and leave enough to enjoy myself a little. The rest needs to go right into my savings!

5. Complete three of my 101-in-1001 goals.
Want to get back on track with these! I was tearing through the list for a while, but slowed at the end of the summer. This will give me something to do as well as something to work towards.

What have you done this week that's made you feel fabulous?

I soaked in the hot tub - even though it sounds wonderful having one at my disposal, I'm still pretty shy about public-swimsuit-ing and haven't been there much since my dad left, only twice with Justin. But this week, I just sucked it up and went alone. The jets felt good on my sore back (I fell asleep on the couch and it was a little painful all week), and just being there, not needing someone with me and not caring if people could see my arms and legs, felt good.

What do you think will be your biggest challenge in reaching your goals?

Staying focused. I have been so off-track lately - bouncing around the 190s all summer, eating my feelings instead of feeling and expressing them. I have great intentions and my motivation is slowly but surely coming back, but I think that having these goals written out and needing to update on them weekly will help incredibly with making sure they're met.

Where in the world do you live? What's amazing about it?

I live in central California, though I have only been here about a month and am still on the lookout for what is so amazing about it.

Don't be deceived by the lows - that's at about 6 a.m. It's already in the high 70s by 7:15 when I bike to work.

I guess that's amazing, per the traditional definition of causing amazement. Not awesome. But it's something. It's really hard to get used to, to be honest. It's tough being sad and frustrated and having it be sunny and beautiful all the time. Sometimes all you want is a rainy day, a day when you can lay around and be lazy and wallow a bit in your feelings and not feel guilty at all. But all this sun, I feel like I need to make the most of every day because I still have my Chicago mentality of enjoy it while it lasts.


Tim said...

Holy cow, those temperatures are brutal. I didn't realise just how hot it gets there on a regular basis especially with Christmas creeping up on us.

In Southampton, Hampshire our highest this week is 18C (64F) and people are walking around in t-shirts/shorts to make the most of the hot weather. I guess us Brits and Chicagoans have a similar mentality.

I love your goals btw, especially eating after dinner. I struggle on that one big time!

financecupcake said...

Nice run!!! Look at that pace, woman! I bet you can run a 28-minute 5k. :) Let us know when you find a race! I am so excited about seeing you bust the 30-minute mark!

Joy said...

I'm with you..I'm ready to leave anything that say obese!! I'm working on this!!

Keep focused!

Unknown said...

Good for you for getting out for a run. I hope you achieve all your goals!!!!

Jill said...

Awesome job on your run! Great pace!!! I am so glad you laced up and went out. You have great goals and have motivated me to set some more specific goals! Now that I am just doing it... I need to define "it" a bit more- don't ya think? :)
Have a great day!!!

Anonymous said...

Ah. Welcome to central CA. Brutal indeed! A day trip to the coast seems in order. How goes the driving instruction?

So glad you are making getting into "overweight" as one of your goals. Hanging in the 190's I think has been a major downer for you and what a freaking relief to get into the more healthy zone. Isn;t it weird that "Obese" fits into a medium? I think you do not look obese because you are fit? I dunno, but still the psychological effect will be good.

Weight Wars said...

I think your goals are brilliant! Good luck lovely lady :)

Unknown said...

Great looking goals, Mary. I was thinking about your new change of weather, but had no idea how different it was until you posted it. I'll be interested to hear how you like 'all sun all the time' in a month or two; here, we always get the weather Chicago gets and always say that we wish for California days when there's nothing but sun. Now, I can actually ask a former midwesterner if that is actually something worth wishing for!

Unknown said...

I was begging for the heat to end where I live. I did a week bag and know I'm whining because it's cool Lame.

Awesome looking goals!

marisol said...

Great goals! I think I need work on not eating after dinner. It's something to think about.

The temperature should cool hopefully in November. When I lived in that area, I had my a/c on from May through October. I am not a fan of the heat.

Katie Foster said...

Great job on the run--and awesome goals! Not eating after dinner hasn't been too bad so far. It's definitely more mental than physical. I know you can do it!

Kat said...

Great job on the run, and your goals! Going from obese to overweight according to BMI is such a huge victory! I know how I felt when I got there, it was amazing. :)

I wish I had weather like sunny CA - your lows are higher than our highs have been this week! I find I'm perpetually cold since I lost weight, so hot sunny days feel so good to me!