May 6, 2011

Roses and thorns

I stepped on the scale Tuesday morning after ten full days away, unsure of what the number would be. I knew how I felt, I knew what my workouts had been, and I knew what I had eaten. A Bright Eyes lyric ran through my mind: "Hope for the best, plan for the worst, and maybe wind up somewhere in the middle..."

212.

Maintenance. *sigh* It could have been worse, I suppose. I wrote down the number, planned my food for the day in my tracking journal, and carried on. Being able to see my numbers was oddly calming - I'll still be working on whittling down my scale dependency as one of my SFC goals, but I've learned that cold turkey just isn't the way for me to go.

It reminded me of a post I wrote at the end of last semester, where I talked about my frustration with students who e-mail you incessantly asking if they're going to get X Y or Z grade in the class. And I always give the same response: you know exactly what you're going to get in my class. The grade should not be a surprise. Think honestly about the work you've done - now tell me, what grade have you earned? You had some higher grades, some lower ... how does it balance out?

For me, some days had great workouts but too much snacking, and others had not-so-great workouts but great overall calorie intake - and it ended up with me in maintenance.

Today, for my official weigh-in, I am down to 209. I'll take it! I have eaten well this week and had some great workouts (the 5.5 mile run I blew off on Monday? Nailed it on Tuesday - 60:22, or just under 11 minutes per mile!), so I'm feeling really positive and refreshed. I came up with an idea for my onederland present to myself - nothing big or fancy, just a little something. That's my motivator for May!

Today is going to be a tough day - it's the last day of the semester. I finished correcting my students' exams and submitted their final grades yesterday, so today I am heading to the office to pack up my things. It's bittersweet - this was my first real full-time job, and it was amazing. I had great colleagues, amazing students, and an incredible teaching experience. This year completely changed my life, and while I feel mostly ready to move on from this particular university, I'm anxious/excited about not having definite plans yet for my next big step. It will all work out, I am sure ... but still, emptying my desk and taking home my binders and teaching materials will be kind of emotional.

To stay on track, I've got plenty to keep me busy. Looking for jobs, first and foremost. Also: researching and getting ready for my Whole Foods challenge. I received some preliminary information from the challenge organizers last night, and it seems really manageable. I've been doing some outside research too, mostly on vegetarian/vegan athletes (specifically runners, though not exclusively) and how to best nourish your body without animal products. I'll be sharing all this info and more next week!

What about you? What's your favorite job you've ever had? What are you looking forward to in May?

9 comments:

Amy said...

Best of luck in your new job search!!

I'd say this is my best job, but my most fun one was working at a spa in high school, I got free manis/pedis/facials, and got to play on the internet and do my nails all day while listening to Enya. It was pretty awesome.

May is a big month for me, going to Alberta on business, anniversary of my brother's death, party for my brother, first 5 K. I am going to try and come out in a stronger, less emotional place than I'm entering it! Cross your fingers for me!

Tim said...

I hope you enjoy your last day, Mary! Enjoy all the praise I am sure you'll recieve from everybody there. You deserve it!

In May I look forward to the end of the football (soccer) season. I get too stressed during it, especially as my team is facing relegation to a lower division! :(

Fitness wise, I hope to continue my C25K and see what happens by the time I finish the program. If I still don't enjoy running at the end of it then at least I know I have tried and given it my all.

Shannie (akaSolidice242) said...

Good luck on searching for a new job! I hope everything goes well.

I am looking forward to what you find out about eating vegetarian but I am transitioning to that way of life too (except I will eat fish from time to time)

I never had a favourite job though I hate working...

Meghan said...

That's amazing that you went from 212 to 209 in just a few days. I'm totally jealous but so happy for you!

Heather said...

Good luck on your job search!! I am in the process of that too for the next school year. I am trying to find a job in Music Education, but those are hard to come by nowadays. I am looking forward to seeing my friends and family come down for a Shower! :)

timothy said...

i worked at a record store i loved and a bookstore, my 2 passions. perfect jobs for me, i also read tarot cards which i loved and taught shamanic journeying and drumming which was spiritually fulfilling. i'm also a Reiki master and i've taught many students. to see their amazement and help point them in a healing direction was a blessing.

Ellie said...

When I was in school I was incessant about tracking my grades. Every time I got something back I would record the score. I always knew the exact amount of points I needed to earn on a final exam to get an A,B or whatever. I would even prioritize my studies that way. Well in that class I can get a 50% and still get an A so I will study less for that one.

I wish I was that way about my weight. Then maybe I wouldn't have such a hard time.

For May, I would like to get the scale moving again in the right direction, it would be amazing to see 150 by June, but I don't want to get hasty. I am looking into starting a new exercise program. Perhaps I should stop looking and just start doing it.

michelle said...

yay for the drop :) i'm taking some time away from the scale, but i know i need to start weighing myself regularly. i know i need to to keep me in check... especially after all the crap i've eaten the last two days (and will eat in the next few) :p :)

good luck with the job hunt. i hope something awesome comes along soon :)

downsizers said...

I think it's important to know yourself in order to find that great job. For example - would you rather work with people or alone? Outside or inside? Are you a self-starter or do you need a schedule? Morning person, night person? Work with tools or ideas? You are going to be fine. Rooting for you!