April 13, 2011


When I was younger, one of my favorite movies was "Angus." It's not available on DVD, unfortunately, likely due to music licensing issues ... the soundtrack was unbelievable, total 90s punk necessities like early Green Day, Goo Goo Dolls, and Weezer. But really, that's not bad, because years later, I still have most of the movie memorized. We used to rent it on VHS from the library and watch it over and over, my sisters and I.

The movie is about an intelligent but overweight young kid named Angus who gets set up as the winter ball king and has to dance with the prettiest girl in school, his secret crush. While I never had a crush on the cutest boy in my class, I could definitely relate to feeling like an outcast, feeling extra awkward going through the tough teenage years in a bigger body.

In one of the most amazing scenes of any movie ever (in my opinion), Angus is talking with his grandfather, who has just announced that "Superman isn't brave." Angus asks him if he remembered to take his pills, and Grandpa laughs.
"You don't understand. He's smart, handsome, even decent. But he's not brave. No, listen to me. Superman is indestructible, and you can't be brave if you're indestructible. It's people like you and your mother. People who are different, and can be crushed and know it. Yet they keep on going out there every time."
I've talked before about wishing I had superpowers - I wanted to be invisible. I wanted to be left alone. I was okay being huge, as long as no one saw me. I would have given anything in order to be able to slip through life, miserable but unseen.

Invisibility isn't a real power. It isn't something I can have, no matter how much I ache for it. No magic or science exists, no amount of food is capable of making me really, truly invisible to other people. Which means I'm vulnerable, but I have to keep in mind that I'm not the only one excluded by this power. No one can be invisible. We're all exposed, we're all vulnerable, and we just have to learn to take the hard knocks along with the moments of happiness, joy, and success, while hoping that the latter outnumber the former.

And you know, just because I can't have that one superpower doesn't mean I can't be powerful. Maybe some superpowers aren't as super as that. Maybe some superpowers are as simple as facing what promises to be a tough day, day after day. Or getting up every time you fall and pushing forward because you honestly believe you're worth it. Or saying no to a binge because you know it isn't what makes your body look, feel, and perform at its best.

I'm still keeping my hopes up for flying, though.

i look so good here


Ann said...

Did you know Angus was filmed in my hometown?!?

Anonymous said...

LOVED the movie Angus!

timothy said...

LOVE it, and the movie is still available on vhs if you really want you could probably convert it.

Amy said...

You never cease to amaze me!

Myndie said...

Love this post... getting up every time you fall and pushing forward because you honestly believe you're worth it is an AWESOME superpower!!!

M said...

I happened upon this post (and i can't BELIEVE you made it today)... because I was searching for this quote for inspiration for a friend of mine.

I too loved that movie. Who couldn't relate to an awkward kid?

Anyway --- thought I'd give it one last search... it IS on DVD ! ! !


Who knows the quality... but I'm buying my copy ASAP ! Enjoy!

~ Jury said...

Love it! I need to watch this movie!

Unknown said...

If you Netflix, it's available for instant viewing.