November 4, 2010

Jumper

On Tuesday, I started week three of the Couch to 5k program. I usually go Sunday/Tuesday/Thursday, but since I had the 5k on Sunday this week, I've slightly altered my plans to Tuesday/Thursday/Saturday this week.

The third week basically consists of a five-minute warm-up walk, then two repetitions of ninety seconds jogging, ninety seconds walking, three minutes jogging, and three minutes walking. I'm not sure if you've noticed, but every week since starting the Couch to 5k, I've remarked that I really enjoyed that week, but I'm not quite sure that I'm ready to move on - and yet I haven't repeated anything thus far. And Tuesday was no exception: I was convinced that I would be working through w3d1 and have to quit.

Three minutes jogging?! I can't do that.

Even now, a little over a day removed from my moments of doubt, I can't completely explain why I thought I wouldn't be able to do it. Week one wasn't too much of a challenge. Week two was harder, but it wasn't painful or impossibly difficult. So when the voice on the mp3 said it was time to start the three minute walk, I could hardly believe it. I had just jogged for three minutes - without stopping! Jogging for three minutes seems so simple, but it's such a huge step for me. I don't think that has ever happened before in my entire life, even when I was a little kid.

I have always felt really held back by my weight. I always assumed that I could not do most things because of it. But looking back, I'm saddened by how few times I have actually, really tried things. I've never ran before, but that's not all - for example, I didn't study abroad in college or grad school because I was afraid. florida, april 2007 - this is clearly old, as my feet aren't tattooed.I said my language skills weren't good enough, but really, I was just terrified of leaving my comfort zone. My French was excellent; I wish I could say the same for my self-confidence.

One of my long-term non-scale goals is to become the do-er I've always secretly dreamed of being. I want to challenge myself in all aspects of life, to push myself to my fullest potential. I've always been a dip-your-toe-in-the-water, wade-in kind of girl. Now, I want to be a jumper. A full-on running head start, and then cannonball into the life I've been too afraid to immerse myself in.

9 comments:

Life as a Caterpillar said...

I like this. I'm also on week 3 of C25K, i love it!
x

Amy said...

I'll admit that I am the same way about running. I probably haven't jogged more than a minute. I've always sucked at it... always. Every time I see someone jogging for a long period of time without stopping I'm amazed. I am thinking of starting the program in the Spring because I'd much prefer to do it outside!

Jessica said...

I can't wait to see what all you jump into :)

Rettakat said...

I loved this! I've done that too... allowed my weight to hold me back from doing things.
A jumper... yes! I want to cannonball right in, too!

This post made me smile right down to my toes. You're going places... yes, you really are. :-D
Loretta
=^..^=

Teresa Mof said...

Amazing when you start to realize you CAN do things you never though possible! That has been happening for me too the last few years. Sorry if this is repeat info - but I love this so I am sharing again. Check out www.podrunner.com they have a free download of the couch to 5K program for your ipod. They give you ding dong tones when to run and when to walk - no more keeping track on your own.

Anne H said...

Wow - you are on fire!
A fire in your heart and soul!

jayme @ Losing Half My Weight said...

woohooo!!! you're kicking ass on C25K! you'll be running (instead of walking) those 5Ks in no time! week 2 is going much better for me this week (thank god), so i'll be headed to week 3 in the next week or so. go you!

carolinecalcote said...

I felt totally the same way about running. I always said I couldn't run. I wrote about it on my C25K page on my blog. I am amazed that I am actually running 2.5 miles (3 times this week!) on the C25K program. It is not easy for me. But I am doing it. I can do it. Even when I used to say that I "couldn't" do it, I think I always knew that I was lying to myself. It was never that I "couldn't" do it. I just didn't want to try. Because it is hard. But I'm not going to be afraid to do things just because they are hard anymore. I LOVE LOVE LOVE the C25K program. Not because it's easy. I think every single run has been hard for me. But it has given me confidence that I can do it. I'm going to actually RUN an entire 5K on Thanksgiving morning. I'm so excited. I may cry. I'm starting week 8 tomorrow. 2.75 mile run! Thank goodness it is FINALLY cooling off here (FL). I hope that helps me get through it. But regardless, I KNOW that I will get through it.

jbu said...

Just found your blog via runs for cookies and have been devouring your past posts - this one really resounded with me- so inspirational and love the pic! I have a feeling I'll be visiting your blog daily- thank you for the inspiration and motivation!